merdeka!!!

ari nie merdeka...everyone sambut dgn heppy...smlm out wif my fren...g ambang merdeka kat ict...ramai...crowded gle okee..quite happening lar i guess..i tgk around suma org heppy..gud 4 them...im heepy 2..but deep down in my heart feel sumthin missing...a bigger major loss...i tried 2 find wut the prob...actually no need 2 find la...coz i already noe bout wut happening...some1 told me...world is round...sumtime u deserve 2 b heeppy sumtime u dont...my life mcm atas scale...x thu akan berat ke mana...kiri or kanan...but i really hope 2 God yg my life will be bright as usual...i hope...maybe dis is the test dat i need 2 go through in ramadhan..i need 2 be strong enough..coz i noe if im not strong i will fall...i noe he also like me...he trying 2 find the best decision to make....back 2 da beginning of the story..when i look around i fell really empty even i hv my fren and im still in da crowded place..i saw some kid running around wif smile and playing wif their fren as they hv their own world..a world dat dont hv sadness n prob...i want 2 be like them too...but i realize i cant...then my memory tetiba jea dtg...dis place hv brought me special feeling....a feeling dat no one can gv dat 2 me...i will keep dat memory wif me...i promise...i need 2 be ready walau pa pe pon kptsan i need 2 accept my fate...mybe dat was the best 4 me...who noe rite...then tiba la tyme untk countdown...masa 2 bru la sedar yg diri sndiri x merdeka lg...walaupon kita da lama merdeka...ive never think bout dis b4...now ive been thinking since yesterday...why im not merdeka yet...hahh...dat the sign ive grown up...my mind struggling to be matured at dis point...(mak anak mak da besa....jgn isau ok..anak mak akan jga diri baek2...sayang mak)....wut a week kan...haih~~thank 2 my girlfrenss sbb tman i....i lupa penat i kejap...hehehe..penat pk...hahaha...love u uols....bubye


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