hello guys!wah sumpah lama gila tak update blog.haha sorry banyak hal yang menghalang and im not active at blog anymore i guess.so if nak tahu perkembangan diri ini bolehlah add i kat twiiter k? haha just some quick update about my life

• now sedang intersesi for paper risk management.kelas sangat boring okay?
• ulang alik dari rumah ke kelas memang pedih poket bai.haha
• jadi makcik kesayangan sepenuh masa kepada lil monsta ku,alya kayra.
• sangat enjoy dengan personal life ((; oh i love you ^^
• active kat twitter so add me okay sape2 y ade twiiter, myaa
• suka cari pasal dengan orang.maaflah saya akan kejam dgn org y xreti nak respect privacy saya
• pokai gila babis punya lah wa cakap sama lu.haha
• sedang dalam proses mencari kerja.sape ad kerja free roger2 ye?
• if tak reply msg harap maaf kedit sering kehabisan so just tweet i.confirm i reply.

so thats it.if i rajin i update blog k.but i dun think so.later (; 

goin to update bout OPKIM soon.sorry lately neh kindda buzy with stuff and all.wish me luck for my test tomorrow ^_^

p/s:i need to choose wisely.

To forget somebody isn't possible because deep inside, you remember everything

yuppa i sgt setuju dgn statement diatas.coz yes deep inside i remember everything! hey guys sorry for my disappearing last few days neh.just that i need time to heal my wound and time to get myself straight again.i thought i can do it but up till today,i cant.sorrryy i didnt mean to be weak o vulnerable.but its just soo hard for me.please understand.but now im quite ok.yelah dah 3 days direct i kua balek sampai pagi buta.meronggeng with my friends! buat keje gile lepak sana sini.yeah i dah ilang akal sudah.terasa kosong gila sekarang.impact kali neh sgt kuat.i dunno how i managed to put on a smile everyday.sucks ya know.coz u know deep inside u're hurt and still hoping but knowing that it will never heal or happen.but im thankful for having friends that trying very hard to cheer me up and be there.thanks u guys.right now,i have no attention in having a serious relationship with anyone,just friendship that i want.yes, i need to take a break from relationship.bole flirt flirt pasneh.hahah jokinglah.just friends.no serious feeling o whatsoever.just i want to enjoy my life when i still get the chance.but still everyday i woke up from bed,my heart ache.sgt sucks!! haaiih im so tired feeling like this.still i need to move on and keep faking smile to people.n im good at faking smile.but im not good at handling my feeling.n i cant lie.i miss u and i still love u.so pathetic of me lah mia! gosh learn to accept reality girl.please for ur own good.remember,setiap kejadian ada hikmahnya.just let time do its work mia.be strong and believe in faith.i keep telling myself this.but i lose hope in faith already.how?


p/s: i plg xsuke petir and guruh! sgt xsuke okeh.sgt takut! 

know what.i totally lose my sanity.yes!superblah mia.now im so fuckin dunno myself n im so fuckin hurt badly.i know i should not act o behave like this.but i cant control myself.im sorry,i thought i was strong enough to keep my sane in good condition but i was wrong.im not that strong.im really sorry to that person.im not strong.coz everytime i got the strength to stand up strong,something always occurred and i fall down really bad!!u think i want this?hell no i dont.its easy for u to say that all can be well,but it is not okay.its not well,its not gonna be okay coz im not okay at all!im done lying to myself,lying to my feeling,when the fact is i know,that i cannot bare any of this.dont u see, im hurt,im badly hurt.and i know u are too.i know but u acted like its easy to let go.to move on to to whatever u want but thats not like me.i know i know i dah promise.bialah i gila sorang sorang.at least i bole buat keje gila without feeling any guilt o whatsoever.if anything happen to me,dont worrylah,i dont want to be a burden to u or anybody else.just let me be me.if i regret later,well i know thats my choice from the beginning.so be it.im done being nice and good and pretending i dont care o care at times.yes i need time to fixed myself.but i dunno how long would it takes.especially now,i dont thing im gonna be okay.hey at least i want to push myself to study hard and get good result.after that,i want to further my studies in master at oversea.i just want to fly myself far from malaysia for a while.and fine peacefulness somewhere else.i hope i managed to achieve that.to much memories to much hurt to much things that reminding me of u.and it makes me mad.yes,im gone crazy coz all my hope and all my faith crumble down upon me.so pathetic of me.

Crawling in my skin 

These wounds, they will not heal 

Fear is how I fall 

Confusing what is real 

There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface 

Consuming, confusing 

This lack of self control I fear is never ending 

Controlling 

I can't seem 

To find myself again 

My walls are closing in 

(Without a sense of confidence I’m convinced that there’s just too much pressure to take) 

I've felt this way before 

So insecure 

Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me 

Distracting, reacting 

Against my will I stand beside my own reflection 

It's haunting how I can't seem... 

To find myself again 

My walls are closing in 

(Without a sense of confidence I’m convinced that there’s just too much pressure to take) 

I've felt this way before 

So insecure 

There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface 

Consuming, confusing 

This lack of self control I fear is never ending 

Controlling

guys listen to this song okeh.its a good song.really good song and have good lyric also.click it! click it click it click it!!!!

what are words 

p/s:im tryin 2 b a gud person n a gud fren.